self-abandonment

She grew afraid to pray; in one bitter moment of self-abandonment and shame was glad to think that Old Paul was dead.

With a pleasant sense of self-abandonment he groped about, searching for its meaning.

In the self-abandonment of friendship we become aware of qualities and strains in the friend which we do not wholly like.

For that night Kipps wallowed in self-abandonment and Coote behaved as one who had received a great trust.